Blog of R'kik D'nec

I sat there in class yesterday, wondering when the last time that I really felt deep emotion was. The closest thing that I could come up with was around Halloween of last year. It seems that in the months that have passed since then, I've just been drifting through life, not really caring deeply about anything. There have been ripples of excitement and let down, but nothing really major. Looking back, my college years have been a big blur, and I don't feel like anything really momentous has come out of it. In the end of "The Grapes of Wrath", Ma says something about how men live in jerks and women live more like the continuous flow of a river. I'm not sure I agree with that. I feel like the past several years, and especially the past several months have been one continuous flow for me. It's kind of sad when you think about it though. It's like you're a ghost floating through life, like you're not really alive. I speak for myself, but I've noticed kind of the same thing in a lot of the people around me too. I think that many students kind of drift through college without any real meaning or significance. In "Adaptation", the screenwriting coach tells Charlie, "Nothing happens in the world? Are you out of your fucking mind? People are murdered every day. There's genocide, war, corruption. Every fucking day, somewhere in the world, somebody sacrifices his life to save someone else. Every fucking day, someone, somewhere makes a conscious decision to destroy someone else. People find love, people lose it. For Christ's sake, a child watches her mother beaten to death on the steps of a church. Someone goes hungry. Somebody else betrays his best friend for a woman. If you can't find that stuff in life, then you, my friend, don't know crap about life." There are times I wish that I could find some of those things in life. It certainly would make things more interesting, and in some way make me feel more alive. Today was not a good day. I felt like I did poorly on two exams, I found out I was rejected for a job without even getting an interview, and I was reminded about how alone I feel. None of it really strikes me to my core though. I don't really care about any of it. Tomorrow's another day when more things will happen and I won't care about them either.

Current Mood: Disheartened
Currently listening to: OK Computer by Radiohead
Last movie I saw: The Heiress
One line review: Actually better than the book, really good ending
On a scale of 0-5 sucks (0 being the best): 1.5 sucks

Thought this might be fun.

(Actor - Leading) Jamie Foxx, RAY (because everybody says so)
(Actor - Supporting) Thomas Haden Church, SIDEWAYS (because it was a good performance)
(Actress - Leading) Hilary Swank, MILLION DOLLAR BABY (because this film has to win some stuff)
(Actress - Supporting) Virginia Madsen, SIDEWAYS (because it was a good performance)
(Animated Feature) THE INCREDIBLES (because I've heard good things about this movie)
(Art Direction) THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA (I'm not even sure what art direction is, but this film sounds like it's very artsy)
(Cinematography) THE PASSION OF THE CHRIST (because it's a very cinematic film)
(Costume Design) THE AVIATOR (again, because this film has to win some stuff)
(Directing) SIDEWAYS (because the directing was really good)
(Documentary Feature) BORN INTO BROTHELS (never seen any of these)
(Documentary Short) THE CHILDREN OF LENINGRADSKY (...or these)
(Film Editing) THE AVIATOR (gotta win some more stuff)
(Foriegn Language Film) AS IT IS IN HEAVEN (never seen any of these...motorcycle diaries anyone? maria full of grace even?)
(Makeup) THE PASSION OF THE CHRIST (don't remember, but i think it had good makeup)
(Original Score) FINDING NEVERLAND (I don't really remember the score, but this film has to win something too)
(Original Song) "Al Otro Lado Del Rio" THE MOTORCYCLE DIARIES (good song, not that I remember it)
(Best Picture) MILLION DOLLAR BABY (because people say so)
(Short Film - Animated) LORENZO (never seen any of these)
(Short Film - Live Action) TWO CARS, ONE NIGHT (...or these either)
(Sound Editing) THE POLAR EXPRESS (why not?)
(Sound Mixing) RAY (it's a film about music, so it's gotta be good, right?)
(Visual Effects) I, ROBOT (better than Spiderman 2, IMO)
(Screenplay -Adapted) SIDEWAYS (my opinion, but a close call with motorcycle diaries)
(Screenplay - Original) ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND (my opinion)

So I guess come Feburary 27th we'll see how horribly wrong I am. Feel free to comment.

Current Mood: Good
Currently listening to: Send Us A Signal by Brandtson
Last movie I saw: Mean Girls
One line review: Not that great, but could have been if it ended about 30 seconds earlier. (i.e. girls actually get run over by bus)
On a scale of 0-5 sucks (0 being the best): 4.0 sucks