Blog of R'kik D'nec

It's all over now. Monday I stayed up until 6:30AM writing one paper. Tuesday I stayed up until 3:30 writing another. Wednesday I had a final exam and had to present my Senior project. This morning I had my last final. It feels good not to have anything to do. I guess I'm going home sometime Saturday or Sunday. Right now I just feel empty. I'd like to celebrate but I don't have the energy for it. I feel like there's something missing. I always get reflective at the end of a semester, and this year is no different. This semester's been an interesting one. There's definitely been a rollercoaster of events, but I think in the end I'm better off than I started. Everything happens for a reason, right? It turned out to be another good semester academically, even if I didn't really like all my classes. In other areas, I guess there were just two major disappointments. Even so, I've been handling them better than I ever thought I could. Either that or I'm deluding myself. Like I said last time, I'm a little anxious about heading home over Christmas. I'm not going to work, and it doesn't look like I'll be going to NYC, because my parents want me to visit my grandparents and my brother's cheap. I have no idea what I'm going to do with all my time. It'll either be really nice or I'll be miserable. I hope it's not too awkward. I got an email today telling me that I got the TA position for engineering 145 next semester, so I'm excited about that. In general, I'm looking forward to my last semester of college. My classes seem like they'll be challenging, and I really hope that I'll be able to stick with the film analysis class. At the same time, I'm going to have to look for some sort of job. It's hard to believe that college is almost over already. These 3.5 years have just flown by. I almost wish that I could do it over again. I think I could do better. Saying that though, I think the reason I'd do better is because of all the learning experiences I've had this time around. It's a shame that nobody can get things right on the first try, and you never get a second chance. It's like saying that, by definition, life is one big series of mistakes. Not very inspiring, I know, but it is in a way. It should give you some comfort to know that everyone is stumbling around life just as clueless as you are. I don't really know what I'm saying. It should be an inspiring thing though. If you live and learn and improve, then every day should be better than the last, and there's always hope. Hope is what keeps the world going around. Here's to hope...

Current Mood: Burnt out
Currently listening to: The Hour of Bewilderbeast by Badly Drawn Boy and The Last Broadcast by The Doves
Last movie I saw: The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou
One line review: Very strange, funny, and better than I expected.
On a scale of 0-5 sucks (0 being the best): 2.0 sucks