Blog of R'kik D'nec

The past couple of weeks, with a few notable exceptions, have been good, but in a way lifeless. I haven't been doing bad, but I wouldn't say that things were good. It's like saying "fine" when somebody asks you how you're doing. The thing is, nothing explicitly bad has happened, but nothing seems to excite me anymore. I feel like I'm going through the motions with nothing to really inspire or motivate me. It's a real shame, because for awhile there I was feeling really good about everything. Visiting my brother was fun, and fall conference was really good, but I still have this listless indifference to everything. (Can you tell I've been using my word of the day calendar?) I don't know what I need to inspire me again and give me a zeal for life. I guess part of the problem is that in the past I've been stimulated by temporary things. When they're gone, I tend to crash into this horrid spiral of depression. I wouldn't say that was the case this time, in that I haven't been depressed, which gives me some hope. Remember how I talked about the excitement in anticipation, and how that was actually the fun part of a lot of things? I think that really is true. Right now I feel resigned instead of impetuous. (Do I need to add a link to dictionary.com?) Maybe I just need to get used to the idea that life is, by definition, mundane. That's pretty grim though, and I think that most people would like to believe otherwise. There's got to be more to just going through the motions. Otherwise, what is there to live for? Anyway, I'm not sure what the point to writing this was, but here it is nonetheless. Oh yeah, by the way, I'm trying to figure out what some of my gifts or talents are. If you have any idea, shoot me an IM. Thanks.

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Current Mood: Not good, but not bad either
Currently listening to: All Ears, All Eyes, All The Time by Piebald and American Hotel by Butterscotch
Last movie I saw: May
One line review: A little corny, but very amusing and disturbing, lots of symbolism, fantastic ending.
On a scale of 0-5 sucks (0 being the best): 1.0 sucks