Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Your Change is thirty-seven cents....
Well loyal readers, it's been awhile... Where can I start? I guess I won't say too much about what I've been doing the past two months, as I would rather look ahead than back. I will say this though; flying on the KC-135 zero-g plane was awesome. Floating around was such a cool and strange experience. It's like jumping without giving any effort and without anything pulling you down. It's like falling, but without the rush of wind and sense of impending doom. It's very peaceful actually. I can't wait to go again in August (and hopefully September/October). Maybe if I figure it out later, I'll post my pictures, or at least link to them.
See KC-135 May '04 album
*it's a lot harder than you would think to aim when you're floating around*
I guess that brings us up to today. I was talking to my co-worker today and I told him that over the past year or so, as I've been examining myself I've come to the conclusion that, if I were somebody else, and saw the way I act and who I am, then I wouldn't like myself. Now, I know that's a pretty harsh statement, but sometimes the truth hurts. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to whine again here, but I believe the first step towards self improvement is recognizing your faults. Then you know what you need to work on to become a better person. Along with examining myself and trying to find my faults comes the attitude that these are the things that I need to change. So really, it's a painful process, but it's for the best. It's not self loathing, but self improvement. I'd like to think that I've been making some progress so far. It's not a lot, but then these things take time. I think that I've been happier since I've been on co-op, and in general I'm happy with the way things are going in my life right now. By the way though, my co-worker's response was labeling me as a "jackass" and stating that "People can't change!" Which brings us to the next point...
Can people change? Is my whole "self improvement" scheme even worthwhile, or is there a basic state of being and set of characteristics that define a person from which you cannot escape? It's quite the interesting philosophical question. I think that people can change, even if it takes a long time and is very difficult. After all, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." I mean, there is obviously something that makes you unique and defines who you are, but at the same time attitudes can change, opinions can change, and habits can change. If you're a bad person, it doesn't have to stay that way forever. If you truly have the desire to change your ways, then it is possible. Really, though, I'm not trying to read too much into anything. I'm in a pretty positive mood. I just thought discussing some of these issues might be interesting. I'd also be interested to see what any of you might have to say on the issue. *cough*Comment!*cough*
By the way: the whole low carb craze is crap, but due to the power of advertising, and my natural curiosity, I want to try the new Coke C2, even though I've heard someone describe it as "Low Carb is just a synonym for Suck". I'll let you know my impression once I've tried it....
Current Mood: Contemplative
Currently listening to: Tommy by The Who
Last movie I saw: Big Fish
One line review: It was strange, somewhat hard to follow, and although the ending tried to tie things together, it fell short.
On a scale of 0-5 sucks (0 being the best): 2 sucks
See KC-135 May '04 album
*it's a lot harder than you would think to aim when you're floating around*
I guess that brings us up to today. I was talking to my co-worker today and I told him that over the past year or so, as I've been examining myself I've come to the conclusion that, if I were somebody else, and saw the way I act and who I am, then I wouldn't like myself. Now, I know that's a pretty harsh statement, but sometimes the truth hurts. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to whine again here, but I believe the first step towards self improvement is recognizing your faults. Then you know what you need to work on to become a better person. Along with examining myself and trying to find my faults comes the attitude that these are the things that I need to change. So really, it's a painful process, but it's for the best. It's not self loathing, but self improvement. I'd like to think that I've been making some progress so far. It's not a lot, but then these things take time. I think that I've been happier since I've been on co-op, and in general I'm happy with the way things are going in my life right now. By the way though, my co-worker's response was labeling me as a "jackass" and stating that "People can't change!" Which brings us to the next point...
Can people change? Is my whole "self improvement" scheme even worthwhile, or is there a basic state of being and set of characteristics that define a person from which you cannot escape? It's quite the interesting philosophical question. I think that people can change, even if it takes a long time and is very difficult. After all, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." I mean, there is obviously something that makes you unique and defines who you are, but at the same time attitudes can change, opinions can change, and habits can change. If you're a bad person, it doesn't have to stay that way forever. If you truly have the desire to change your ways, then it is possible. Really, though, I'm not trying to read too much into anything. I'm in a pretty positive mood. I just thought discussing some of these issues might be interesting. I'd also be interested to see what any of you might have to say on the issue. *cough*Comment!*cough*
By the way: the whole low carb craze is crap, but due to the power of advertising, and my natural curiosity, I want to try the new Coke C2, even though I've heard someone describe it as "Low Carb is just a synonym for Suck". I'll let you know my impression once I've tried it....
Current Mood: Contemplative
Currently listening to: Tommy by The Who
Last movie I saw: Big Fish
One line review: It was strange, somewhat hard to follow, and although the ending tried to tie things together, it fell short.
On a scale of 0-5 sucks (0 being the best): 2 sucks
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