Tuesday, April 06, 2004
3 Things
OK, so I've been in one of those moods again. All my so called friends hate me. What is wrong with me? What am I doing wrong? Why can't I have better relationships with people? I've been feeling that I'm disconnected from everyone, and that to them, I'm just a bystander. I don't feel like anyone cares about me. I'm just there, like a piece of furniture. It's not satisfying at all. I don't really blame other people anymore. I think that I'm the problem. They always say that you have to be a friend to make a friend or whatever. The truth is, I'm just not a friendly person. My co-worker recently confided that the first week he met me that I seemed very intimidating. The problem is I don't know how I come off to other people, or really what kind of person I really am. I guess I don't see myself as a very good person, which of course leads to low self-confidence and a characteristic shyness. It's a terrible cycle. So you see, I've gone from a suspicion that my friends don't like me anymore, or at least not as much as I think they should, to berating myself. This is how my mind works. Is any of it true? Well, there's probably some element of truth to everything, but that's another point. End result: I feel miserable again. Whose fault is it? probably my own. I wish I could do something right.
The past few weeks I've been watching the new seasons of Deadwood and The Sopranos on HBO. Both are awesome shows, and I recommend you check them out if you have the means (HBO/BitTorrent). I've watched The Sopranos for awhile, and I guess that it's better when you know the backstory and what's going on with the show. So for me, the new season has been good. As always, it's a very powerful, hard-hitting show. Deadwood, on the other hand, I almost like better. I've watched the first 3 episodes and I'm completely hooked already. HBO really knows how to make good TV shows. They pack so much into each episode. To make it even better there's no censorship and no commercials. That's the way television should be in my opinion. On the music front, I've been addicted to the new Modest Mouse album since I got it on Saturday. Definitely go check out "Good News For People Who Like Bad News".
So like I said, HBO is the way television should be. This whole "indecency" thing with the FCC and all is ridiculous. The point is, if you don't like the content you have the choice to turn it off. There's nothing wrong with a little free speech! Remember the First amendment, people? Parents should control their kids. Period. As for adults, stop being afraid of words and images. That's all I really have to say on the matter.
The past few weeks I've been watching the new seasons of Deadwood and The Sopranos on HBO. Both are awesome shows, and I recommend you check them out if you have the means (HBO/BitTorrent). I've watched The Sopranos for awhile, and I guess that it's better when you know the backstory and what's going on with the show. So for me, the new season has been good. As always, it's a very powerful, hard-hitting show. Deadwood, on the other hand, I almost like better. I've watched the first 3 episodes and I'm completely hooked already. HBO really knows how to make good TV shows. They pack so much into each episode. To make it even better there's no censorship and no commercials. That's the way television should be in my opinion. On the music front, I've been addicted to the new Modest Mouse album since I got it on Saturday. Definitely go check out "Good News For People Who Like Bad News".
So like I said, HBO is the way television should be. This whole "indecency" thing with the FCC and all is ridiculous. The point is, if you don't like the content you have the choice to turn it off. There's nothing wrong with a little free speech! Remember the First amendment, people? Parents should control their kids. Period. As for adults, stop being afraid of words and images. That's all I really have to say on the matter.
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