Blog of R'kik D'nec

Wow, I guess you could say I've been neglecting my blog. It's been two weeks since my last real post. A lot has happened since then. What can I say now? Thanksgiving was good, although uneventful, lots of rest and good food were involved. I came back to find out I got the co-op position at NASA, which is definately a good thing. I've decided to move off campus, however, which is causing some angst. More on that later. It's been a busy and abnormally social weekend. Friday night was fun (wink to all involved), and yesterday was pretty good. I got to go eat at Buca di Beppo for free thanks to Tau Beta Pi, and then I watched a good movie with JP. "City of God" is a disturbing movie, but not immensely disturbing. It would be nice if it were in english, but oh well. Then today was good all around, but confusing as well. I'm going to focus on tonight. I had a really good time in Mentor at Jon's house with all my friends. I got the final OK to live there next semester with Jon's parents as well. So, thrown together in the same evening was what I'll be getting into next semester, as well as what I have to give up. It would be really nice to stay at Case with my friends, but it just wouldn't work financially. So I'm excited about next semester and going on co-op and living off campus and having a car and everything, but, and of course it has to be a rather large but, I'm just afraid that I'm going to lose my friends and be on my own. I know myself, sort-of, and I'm definately a lazy person. I know that I'll have to make the effort to stay connected and to come and visit people, and I just hope that I'm up to it. So I come back from Jon's house, in I guess what you could call a "mixed mood", and then people start talking already about how they're going to replace me. Basically, that just made me more uncomfortable, and worried about losing my friends. It also made me realize that in a week and a half I won't live here anymore, and this won't be my room. It's the end of the life that I've known for the last 4 months, and it's just come so suddenly.

It's just so strange...not bad, but strange.

So I don't know how to feel. I'm happy and excited about co-op and next semester, but I'm also sad to be leaving my suite and friends, which I've only recently realized that I really appreciated. So, Thank You everyone. I will definately miss you.